Jesus Calling.

My mom gave me a book many months ago called Jesus Calling. 

I actually have the toddler version for Carson and have really fallen off the wagon in reading it with him everyday. 

I am recommitting to reading my copy and his each day! 

Lets back up for a minute...

I'm going to be really honest and tell you all that I have questioned God in a big way lately. 

I have wondered if He really is listening when I pray or if He has me on Auto-Reply 

"sorry, out of the office. if you have a prayer request, the answer is no." 

Oh ye of little faith. 

Well, not once, but TWICE this week, he's taken me by the shoulders and given me a good shake. 

I know He's listening. I know He's speaking to me. 

I think I need to take a cue from Addison Road's lyrics "What Do I Know of Holy"... 

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

I don't know yet exactly what He is saying to me. I don't know yet exactly what He is wanting me to hear from Him. 

But I know He's talking to me, and my heart is open to receive what He has for me. 

After months of having the book Jesus Calling, my Bible study leader emailed us today and mentioned the book. 

I grabbed my copy off of a side table in our living room and flipped to today's entry and my heart is filled with peace: 

Wait Quietly In My Presence while My thoughts form silently in the depths of your being.  Do not try to rush this process, because hurry keeps your heart earthbound.  I am the Creator of the entire universe, yet I choose to make My humble home in your heart.  It is there where you know Me most intimately; it is there where I speak to you in holy whispers.  Ask My Spirit to quiet your mind so that you can hear My still, small voice within you.  I am speaking to you continually: words of Life…Peace…Love.  Tune your heart to receive these messages of abundant blessing.  Lay your requests before Me and wait in expectation.

1 Kings 19:12 (KJV); Psalm 5:3